Embarrassed and Alone I bought my First Bible

I’ll never forget the day I bought my first Bible.  I had been a Christian for just under a year, but here’s the thing…I had never gone to church and only knew one other Christian personally (my future husband).

Last week, in the post 7 transforming reason to use your Bible when journaling,  I began to remember that day…the day that I realized that I needed to buy a Bible!

I was 28 years old and had not grown up in a Christian home, nor did I know ANY Christians while growing up.  It’s hard to believe isn’t it?!  Where were they…I needed them!  HA! You can read why in my personal testimony, just in case you haven’t done so.

Little boy hugging an old book

My future husband and I used to talk for hours about God.  He would tell me all of the the amazing things about what Gods word said, we would talk about Gods great love for people just like me.

Me? I’m a rebel…not so much anymore, but then…I was rebel through and through.  But God in his amazing grace and love saved me.

John, my husband…LOVES the word of God and he was relentless in trying to convince me that I needed a Bible.  What for??  I mean, I had this super secret relationship with God, I had joy for the very first time in my life!  I secretly called myself a Christian…I even looked up what that word meant…Christ follower.  Yes that was me, but it was MY secret…in a world of unbelievers and 12 step “make up your own God” rules. 

I don’t remember what made me change my mind, but I decided to get  one of those Bibles.  I would forge this journey alone, I was used to doing that…

In the world I grew up in, being a Christian was the WORST.  They were hypocrites only to be made fun of and outcast.  Why?  I have no idea.

I had learned to take care of myself and do life alone pretty much.  Not only was I rebellious I was extremely independent…I had to be.

I took a deep breath and went into one of those Christian Book Stores.  I remember looking around before entering the store to make sure nobody I knew saw me.

I had absolutely no idea what to look for!

My criteria for buying my first Bible:

  • It had to NOT LOOK like a Bible
  • It had to be small
  • I had to be able to read it and understand it

I know…right!  LOL Sounded reasonable to me!

I don’t remember there being as many choices back then as now a days…so it wasn’t really too overwhelming.

Then I spotted it…this one “looked” good.  It was dark blue and in small letters on the binding it read Holy Bible. 

Yes, that was pretty inconspicuous.  I might get away with people not knowing that this was …shhh a Bible!

Next test…could I read it and understand it?


So I bought it…for $7.99. 

This began my relationship with a book written by God that is alive and has transformed my life in every way for the past 30 years…I’ll never be the same.

There are so many amazing Bibles in stores these days…I just know there is one just right for you! Below are just a couple out of MANY!

This one is simple and cute!

gift bible

Quest bible ~ This is a great bible that answers just about any and every question you may have…well almost.  My husband has this one.

quest bible

Do you have a Bible?


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  1. Shari, this post warms my heart because it sounds like a journey from darkness to light. Those of us with a shelf full of Bibles forget the wonder of just one book that bears the fingerprints of the God who speaks.

  2. That is an amazing story. Especially how you and your husband used to discuss God. Great post.

  3. Love your story! I’m so glad you bought your first Bible and read it and let His words transform your life…we would be missing sooo much without your life and the wonderful blessings you share with us.

  4. Hi Shari, thank you for the walk down memory lane. I too remember that day I bought my first Bible. I still have it. Still read it. Still treasure what is inside.

  5. Thank you for sharing your story with us! 🙂 So glad you followed that “prompt” to purchase one!

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