Have you ever wondered if you are addicted to something? Well there is one question you can ask yourself…but then you need to be brutally honest too. Do you think Blogging could ever become addictive? It did for me and I’m going to share about my Blogging Addiction in this weeks One Blogger’s Confession.
The first step in Alcoholics Anonymous is…
“We admitted we were powerless over Blogging (Alcohol) and that our lives had become unmanageable.”
Webster Dictionary says this about Addiction:
- a strong and harmful need to regularly have something (such as a drug) or do something (such as gamble)
- an unusually great interest in something or a need to do or have something
Step One is the most powerful of all the Steps…we can only move on and succeed if we FIRST admit we are powerless and especially that our lives have become unmanageable. I know this…because I’m a recovering alcoholic (for 30 years) and I’m all too aware of the things in our lives that we can become addicted to and how they can become idols and consume us.
I was sooo excited when I stumbled upon Blogging 4 years ago…A way to reach out to others, to share my gifts and talents, to build up Women and make a little side income for my crazy sports loving kids. I knew nothing about it, but oooh how I love to research!
I loved how I could create online and bring my years of writing to the world, I loved how I could create beautiful photos to let women know that they COULD cook simple food and turn them into gourmet meals. I loved the online friends that I had met…so encouraging and helpful. I LOVE it all!
The problem…I became obsessed. YES OBSESSED!
[Tweet “I began to tell myself little lies that would threaten to destroy me AND my business…eventually.”]
- I told myself that all new business owners spend unreasonable amounts of time on their business when they are building. What do I mean by unreasonable? 12 hours a day..or more. If I was not actually AT my computer…I was obsessing about it in my mind. Design, articles, eBooks, who am I, what am I, who is my audience, why should they read, insecurities…shall I go on?! Obsessed!
- I told myself that it was normal to sneak my phone into the bathroom on off business hours to check my Stats. Speaking of stats…I was checking them hourly or more…just because.
- I told myself it was normal to check my emails every two seconds because after all I don’t want to miss an opportunity! You know that million dollar one that is coming today!
- I told myself that the tingling and pain in my legs would get used to the hours of sitting, sitting and sitting. It would be ok… I’m building a business and sacrifices MUST be made.
- I told myself that the pain in my arm and wrist, as I wielded that mouse like a maniac from dawn to dusk, was a symptom of a good thing!
- I told myself my housework would get done …later… and when I would wearily crawl into bed with dishes still piled high and laundry still needing to be done …there’s always tomorrow. I began to feel guilt and remorse over how I had spent my day.
- I told myself that my family didn’t need me as much and that it was ok for them to look at my back as I typed away at my computer. After all I was still sitting in the family room. I could answer questions and get something if needed…sometimes.
- I told myself it was normal not to see my “in real life” friends because I was working and building this business. I’ve cancelled many a coffee appointments to meet deadlines that I could have scheduled better.
- I told myself that it’s normal to be in my jammies still at noon…I mean I’m working aren’t I?!
My business began to control me…not I in control of my business.
In other words..
My life was becoming UNMANGAGEABLE and I definitely felt powerless. I was becoming addicted to Blogging!
Slowly I have been making changes over this last year…I don’t want to be owned by anything but God. It’s not easy to change habits though.
The changes I’ve made:
- I’m exercising and getting up from my computer on a regular basis…mostly.
- I’m NOT checking my Stats or Email secretly in the bathroom or obsessively during the day.
- I’ve kept appointments with my friends and created a better schedule for my blogging campaigns.
- I’m keeping my home clean.
- Oh and I’m getting showered and dressed before noon.
I’m a work in progress…I don’t have to be perfect. This Blogging Business is still a wonderful adventure, but I’m putting it where it belongs in my life.
God is helping me to see what is the most important and He is also giving me solutions for getting my business under control.
[Tweet “One of the biggest things that God has shown me…to stop lying to myself…”]
Remember my friend, Denial is NOT a river in Egypt.
I can’t tell you if you have a Blogging Addiction…that is between you and God, but if you think maybe you might have one…then you need to look a little harder.
Much love to all of my Blogging Friends,
Be Blessed and go Forth in Blogging Truth! o
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