Right before Christmas I was going about doing my usual list making for gift giving. I was thinking deeply about each child and what we could get them. I laughed to myself because I had this funny little idea for my 13 year old daughter…
All of a sudden, out of nowhere God used the ordinary to teach me something quite extraordinary!
Many of you that know me, know that I had a very rough upbringing. Alcoholism, Divorce, Abuse…(you can read my personal testimony if you are not familiar with my story) Anyway, as you can imagine I spent many years after getting clean and sober working through soooo many issues from my past. I am happy to report that God has healed my heart to an unimaginable overflowing of His Grace..
I am rarely ever bothered about my past and yet there are lessons that will take a lifetime to see the depth of where God wants to take us. This was one of those moments that clonked me on the head out of know where..
When I was a teenager about the age of 13 my Step Mom bought me a bottle of shampoo for Christmas..that was the only present that I received that year..it has always hurt me and it’s one of those stories that I tell people when I am speaking about my past and abuse issues..
But what if my perspective was wrong…
Back to my teenage daughter…She is a Basketball player and works out really hard..therefore she washes her hair ALOT so that it’s not so greasy from working out all the time. Well I thought it might be kind of funny to buy her a giant bottle of shampoo for Christmas…
See where I’m going with this??
Maybe, just maybe my Step Mom didn’t mean to hurt me..maybe she meant it as sort of a joke and really wanted to bless me with lots of shampoo? She is not perfect and we did not have a good relationship, she was hurtful in many ways, but maybe on this occasion, she meant well.
God was clearly speaking to my heart. I have long since forgiven my Step Mom..and she has asked for forgiveness. I too have asked for forgiveness…
Well..He wants to surprise us! To show us things for the rest of our lives and want’s us to continue to grow in Him. God used an ordinary innocent funny thought I had toward my daughter to do something extraordinary and show me that maybe I don’t have all the answers, maybe I don’t see all the details, maybe I’M the one that needs the Grace more than my Step Mom.
35 years later…still learning and growing 🙂
Has God shown you something in yourself lately that surprised you?
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