I wasn’t going to write a post today..I needed to maybe pay bills or clean house or you know some of those things that keep life rolling along and my family happy and healthy..LOL
Living in the Pacific Northwest the Wintertime brings a lot of dark rainy and cloudy days..oh and the fog..yuck
I’m pretty good at keeping the Sonshine Shining in my heart though..I’d say I’m a pretty joyful person…by the power of the Lord of course..
But this morning…
My 14 year old daughter and I had it out…
I don’t usually buy into the morning grouchiness..but today..I just let myself be sucked in…I was tired..
and because I let myself be sucked in and reacted..I now have broken fellowship with her…
“So what!” I think in my heart..”she’s a smarty mouth grouchy girl!” “selfish and self-centered” Hummph I have every right to be angry at her!
Broken hearted..broken fellowship…not just with my daughter but..my own sin separates me from fellowship with my God..
I know my daughter and I know she is broken hearted too…
She say’s she’s sorry while I am driving her to school because she missed the bus…Grrrrr
I don’t want to forgive her and I say so..mostly because this has become a pattern in the past couple of weeks..I tell her why..
She’s too tired..
I’m too tired..
I watch her go into the gigantic building for school…and I wish I had been able to speak blessings over her..my heart breaks again..
Me and my big mouth…
Forgive me Lord…Let me forgive her Lord..Let me bless her Lord..fill me with your Love Lord!
Bitterness and unforgiveness…it’s like that yucky Fog…hanging around all day long where you can’t see the beautiful Sonshine.
I hate bitterness…I could write a book on that destroyer..
gently reminds me..the 10 reasons I need to forgive..
So I text her and say “I’m sorry..will you forgive me?” and she texts me back “Yes, I’m sorry..will you forgive me?”
My relationship is right with my daughter..and most importantly right with God..
“Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the alter and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother: then come ad offer your gifts.”
I think I will do something to bless my daughter when she gets home from school..don’t ya think..
I’ve said enough..Have a great day!